Jenny’s Story
When I come out at today’s place through my own life transformation, I am only thankful.
Every day when I wake up, breathing in fresh air, seeing the sun light, knowing that I am alive; when I do my morning exercises of prayer, yoga, and meditation, looking at the green trees and flowing water in front of our house; —
when I am at outdoor showered by golden sunlight under the open blue sky with beautiful fluffy clouds; when I walk on the beach watching amazingly beautiful sunset; they are all the moments I feel deeply touched by the beauty and power of the nature from our creator, and the moments I feel fully connected to my God – the divine source.
I feel nurtured, peaceful, loved, grateful, and joyful.Deep down, there is one place where the faith growing more and more solid and stronger
Everything is OK and perfect at this moment, it is what it is, we just simply be and allow. We will never get things done in our life. So just jump into the life flow, doing my own part, concentrating on every minute of NOW, and leave the rest part to Him.
How can I hold all these blessings and wonderful feelings with myself and don’t reach out sharing and serving? Isn’t that all I was meant to experience and go through, all I am called to do for my life purpose?
To move forward following my call, I have to share with you my story. How and why I come out at this place doing what I am doing.
I am a life time spiritual seeker, this started from my childhood time. I always felt something is missing inside of me, even though from outside, I lived on a pretty good life. Middle class family, fit well to the society, went to good schools, popular and well educated, successful then with career I would say…
But one big thing, I never felt I could be a real me.
I was born and brought up under oriental culture, which means over strict disciplines and high expectation for performance and achievements. I do “should”, “would”, “have to” all the time.
Deep down, I held these emotions of angry, sad, and powerless all the time, just did not feel happy. It’s almost like having a silent screaming: I want to be me.
I knew part of me was always floating in the air, searching for the answers. This searching led me to those inspirational people books and people, to the music which always touches and comforts me, to the English language when I learned those of my favorite songs, to the savior my God, to my careers, and to my family.
When I started working as executive search consultant, I was fascinated – helping people finding their right career could be my career! I fell in love with my job, doing it with my whole heart and full passion, as it served my life purpose – helping people.
After about 10 years successfully working in the same field, I started to have this doubt in mind “am I really helping people?” I was more and more convinced that higher position, more money and power did not necessarily bring the happiness into people’s life. People came to me gradually talking more about their work and life issues instead of moving to the next job. My searching journey continued, now I felt I was ready to go “deeper”.
So I transferred to career coaching and executive coaching.
It was a gradual process but again, years later, I finally realized that what I talked with those executives were still at surface levels. Almost every case I dealt with, it ended up going deep down to the part of the personal foundation, the root humanity issues.
When I did career coaching, I actually assisted people for their whole life positioning. There were just so many layers about mind/emotional energy issues which were behind the scenes. It is like ice-burger underneath the water at our subconscious level of the mind, getting our way to live out a whole hearted life with full potentiality.
Now what? My searching at this point in my life seemed went nowhere – prayer with no answers. Oh, I may better say: the answers finally came, but definitely not pretty ones I wanted at all.
Just when I was confused about my next step direction, my life suddenly turned upside down.
Years ago, my family got hit from almost every aspect of our life: finance, health, career – for years my mother lied on the dying bed in coma and finally passed away, I was stressed out and got sick myself, I could not work, my relationship was extremely challenged, meanwhile I had a young child to raise, I felt the whole world was on me…
That was the darkest time in my life.
I was totally beaten up and shut down. And, it lasted long, and I just could not get out from it.
I was overwhelmed, being angry to God, asking why and feeling so unfair. I was right, I had the reasons to feel badly, even though I knew it could have been much worse. For a period of time, I only had all those negative emotions. You know what I am talking if you went through similar situations in your life.
It went on and on until finally, my ego and pride did not have strength to fight any more. Now I had to 100% surrender myself to the reality, to my fate.
The amazing thing was, the minute when I started to surrender and let go, a “me” – “a real me” I guess, just began to be awakened from a remote place at a deep level inside of me.
A kind of inner guidance system inside of me just got turned on and started to work. Now I could hear the clear voices from within: and new resources started to flow into my life without my expectation, through people, books, movies, music, through different miraculous ways… Clearly and slowly, it guided me to move ahead with one baby step each time.
At the beginning, I did not know what those resources meant to me, as they were new and different. Like the information and my study of Chinese energy lines and points. But at least, I felt good now as my searching journey resumed. The first time I experienced EFT was from my mentor coach and Coach U instructor Susan. Then I experienced a real EFT session from a Canadian practitioner when I was on a yoga retreat in Thailand.
I was fascinated to find out the relationship between the Chinese meridian points and this modern western psychology method. I was surprised to see so much emotional stuff came out during EFT session while I even did not realize of their existence.
Based on the book I studied, these meridian points we tap on were all emotional related acupuncture points. Now I can understand why people call it needle-free, emotional acupuncture. I finally got my clarity about why, about my call, about my purpose of my life. I was sooooo excited. I thought I was ready. I had my loving heart, I had the professional and life experiences, I could start right now of my coaching to help people.
But…, not yet, it still did not happen.
Well, now I am at the age with the wisdom to know that I better keep obeying and be patience. I kept praying and listening to the guidance. Now more resources kept flowing, I mean flowing in. The well-being books, courses, audios and videos… I then joined EFT tapping global Summit, and then EFT tapping courses, Certificate training, and had opportunities to learn and compare different approaches from different teachers and spiritual leaders…
Now I know this EFT tapping and releasing technique is my thing. I am amazed by its power, it works almost for all issues in our life. It helped me tremendously when I worked on my own childhood issues, my authentic self-issues, my health, my finance situation, my relationship issues, my forgiveness issues in life, my self-love issues, and my daring to stand out in the world speaking the truth about myself not feeling scared to be judged…
Months after months, layers by layers like an onion was peeled, so much berried negative emotions got released, and the inner blockages got hit and collapsed. I felt more calmed, confident, concentrated, and balanced every day. Life became lighter and happier. EFT also helped my family members, my relatives and friends around me.
I realized that different spiritual or coaching modalities actually all go back to our life’s original place – our God the divine source which is “LOVE”, “PEACE”, “GRATITUE”, and live at “PRESENT MOMENT”. This EFT releasing technique is so much in line with my prayer and the gospel messages I follow every day. So now I add EFT as my daily routine, together with my prayer, yoga, and meditation.
When the vibration started to be lifted up, my life situation became changed. Resources, opportunities, more wonderful people, everything I needed at the different stage, it just showed up so much more easily, health was back, financial situation got improved, I had the energy finally put everything together seriously for my coaching. Finally my heart tells me, with all what I got trained and experienced, and this EFT tool, I AM READY. I know that it does not help people by just telling them: “don’t worry, let’s pray”.
I am well equipped now by this EFT to better serve others. I am thrilled!!! This wonderful joyful feeling comes out from deep down within, like a spring, nurtured me and sweetly remind me how blessed I am. We will still get caught by negative feelings in daily life, since we are all human. But now I know how to face it, accept it, be peace and friendly with it instead of fighting with it, and let it go any time when they show up.
Today when I look back, I am overwhelmed by the flow of the grace in my life. All those years’ sufferings and struggles took me really to today’s higher place which I could never even have dreamed about. Now I could say adversities in life are blessings. What we went through are meant for us to experience, bad or good, we just embrace them all. The reasons and the purposes for that are only for the highest good for ourselves and all others.
Many miracles happened in my life. I was born and brought up in Shanghai, China. I obtained tertiary education in China and graduate qualification from Australia. I worked all those years for international companies with executives from different nationalities and cultures. I am a married mother and now live with my husband and son in Florida. I appreciate the multi-culture exposures in my life as it widely broadened my mind and enabled me to see through things with more complete perspectives. Humanity is universal. I am well aware about how our culture and value system play the important role for our life journey.
Today I say yes to my guide and respond to my call. I share the wisdom from what my life taught me professionally and personally, from my God, and from both western and oriental culture. I open my heart, follow the guidance from above. This heaven on earth joyful journey is what we are meant to experience. It is not for others, but for you, for me, and for everybody. Only if you open yourself, trust, and allow…
I invite you to walk with me together on this joyful life journey!